Pondering marriage, birth, and other celebrations after suicide

I read the news today on Facebook; another friend of Sebastian’s recently got engaged. All his friends are getting married, starting new and exciting jobs, and having babies. They are moving on as if nothing awful ever happened to them. I know in my head that this is untrue, yet I wonder if they know how I feel. Can they think beyond their happy thoughts to those who might not be as happy? I want to rejoice with those who rejoice. However, I want them to mourn for me, who is still mourning (Romans 12:4). I am excited about their future happiness. Yet, I remain sad and ever-mindful of my loss. I will never be the groom’s mother at Sebastian’s wedding, nor will I babysit his children.

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